everything is fine.

but..

i pray that he can somehow built some trust in me.. he can somehow stop being so stubborn..

i dont mind that he carries a traditional mindset all along..

i dont mind that he over-protected me..

i dont even mind that he's so vulgar, because i learnt it even though it's bad, really.

colleagues explained to me that he must have really cherish me, love me too much that he is so god damn worried about my safety, worried that i might bump into bad people if i were to go oversea.

but hello, im god damn fucking twenty years old now.

no longer that fucking three years old girl in the past.

for the past 2 weeks, im telling myself that my dad called me up to check where i am is because he is worried and that he cherish me many.

im telling myself that i will understand how he is feeling now in the future when i have kids myself.

im telling myself to be a good kid and i should listen to him, because parents are always right.

im no longer hanging in there.. but i dont wish to rebel.

i dont wish to be anyone's puppet, to tell me what i should do & what i should not do.

even for my future too.

as long as i step outside of my comfort zone, i gain experiences from the world & people.

and when this happens, i start to have my own mindset and my way of looking at the world.

dont expect me to do what you want me to do..

so people, tell me what can i do.

it's never easy to change one's mindset.

i really need some freedom, just a little will do.